| Title | : | Leave Me |
| Author | : | |
| Rating | : | |
| ISBN | : | 1616206179 |
| ISBN-10 | : | 9781616206178 |
| Language | : | English |
| Format Type | : | Hardcover |
| Number of Pages | : | 343 |
| Publication | : | First published September 6, 2016 |
Surprised to discover that her recuperation seems to be an imposition on those who rely on her, Maribeth does the unthinkable: she packs a bag and leaves. But, as is often the case, once we get where we’re going we see our lives from a different perspective. Far from the demands of family and career and with the help of liberating new friendships, Maribeth is able to own up to secrets she has been keeping from herself and those she loves.
With bighearted characters--husbands, wives, friends, and lovers--who stumble and trip, grow and forgive, Leave Me is about facing the fears we’re all running from. Gayle Forman is a dazzling observer of human nature. She has written an irresistible novel that confronts the ambivalence of modern motherhood head on and asks, what happens when a grown woman runs away from home?
Leave Me Reviews
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She felt so caught out. She’d thought she’d done everything right. She’d spent her entire life making lists, following through, keeping everything in check, all to make sure this kind of thing would never happen.
And look where it had gotten her. Just fucking look.
Looking back over seven years of Forman's work, I'm starting to see that her downfall may be her romanticism; her penchant for happy ever afters. It seems she has a romantic streak that - with one exception - weakens her otherwise strong works.
Her characters feel real, flawed and human. Even when we don't really like them, they demand our sympathy and we find ourselves needing to know what happens to them. Too often, though, I think these powerful stories are dampened by a sweetness that hasn't been earned.
I Was Here takes an informative and sad story about suicide and turns it into a romance.
Sisters in Sanity ends a book of girl power, female friendships and strong characterization with a forgiveness that was undeserved.
Just One Day turns an emotional teen fling into a globetrotting obsession to reunite the starcrossed lovers.
If I Stay and
Where She Went follow the same pattern - an intense, sad, character-defining decision is made, but Forman couldn't leave it there - but they're the exception because, IMO, it actually works. In
Leave Me, it doesn't work.
Don't get me wrong, it's not a bad book. In fact, I enjoyed all the things that seem to be the main criticisms of Forman's first adult novel. It sounds like a bland story - tired, overworked mommy has a heart attack and STILL can't get any help or sympathy from her husband, mother or kids. So she leaves. This wasn't a problem for me.
Maribeth was a likable, complex character and she drew my sympathy instantly. Her life pulled me in, no matter how dull it may seem. And though it's obviously a selfish act to just up and leave your kids, it didn't bother me like it did some readers because I think the author portrayed the push to breaking point very well. I didn't like what Maribeth did, but I understood it.
It's an understated feminist novel, showing how even in today's world where career and motherhood are not mutually exclusive, women are still drawing the short straw. There's still the assumption that it's Maribeth's duty to come home and manage the household and kids, despite both her and her husband working full time jobs. The pressure is all too much and she finally cracks.
Striking out on her own, Maribeth meets lots of great new friends and embraces the pleasures and challenges of her newfound freedom. Obviously a character-driven novel, we observe the changes in Maribeth, as she figures her life out and faces her fears. The blurb calls Forman "a dazzling observer of human nature" and that couldn't be more true.
But again, all this character development is weakened by the mending and retying of broken threads. Issues that are present early in the novel are conveniently forgotten. In short, Maribeth runs away from her problems and her husband, .
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"Ma'am, are you in a crisis?"
"She was 44 years old and had suffered a heart attack and undergone bypass surgery. She'd run away from home and neither her husband nor her best friend had tried to contact her. And she couldn't swim. Yes, she was in motherfucking crisis!"
In "Leave Me"......
deep down Maribeth was scared she was going to die. It wasn't death itself she feared - but the fear of what would happen to her twins - being too young- to not have a mother. Maribeth figured out "the ugly secret of a mother's love: you protect them, to protect yourself". WHAT DOES THAT MEAN???
Any thoughts? I thought about that sentence a few times!!!!
Mother's do give and give and give --- zillions of hours of her time for her children - her husband - her extended family - her job- cooking - cleaning -laundry - driver - nurse - errand girl - yard maintenance -toolgirl - bath time - homework -community participation ( schools, church, sports, music,), dentist and doctor appt', food shopping, shoe shopping for those growing 'feet' on kids, etc. etc.
So,
Do we judge a mother for 'walking out'? Going off grid? Not leaving a note of where she is going?
Can we forgive her? Do we justify her actions 'because' SHE SUFFERED A LIFE THREATENING HEART ATTACK!
I THINK WHAT SHE DID WAS WRONG....[NOT FOR LEAVING]... but for going out of communication!
Why can't a wife go to her husband and say.... "I'm desperate....I can't get well in this environment. I need a month - maybe two-- to be alone. I need alone time ...to practice living a healthy lifestyle......cooking....eating a healthy heart diet-- exercise -- removing chaotic stress. Why can't she ASK for a RUN-a-WAY emergency self-connection retreat?" Why not???
Why DON'T couples with small children consider designing well-being individual get-a-ways? Rather than wait for the breakdowns to design their life?
I think this book is a terrific discussion book - especially for those people in the HOT SEAT of parenting little kids.
This is a likable book. An engaging easy read.
If you 'want' to look deeper... it's available. The topic of a young 44 year old having a heart attack - itself - is worthy of discussion. It happens!!!
My dad died of a heart attack at age 34. - no notice -In 15 minutes he was dead.
Other conversations:
The children. How were they doing?
What happens to Maribeth's new friends? Is she supposed to drop all contact with her new friends once she returns to her family?
The cast of characters Maribeth meets when she dashes off to Pittsburgh are likable and interesting!!! --- The story is engrossing-- but we are still worried about the kids and her husband back home.
The ending is predictable from the start... but I'm not so sure a damn thing gets resolved. This family still has a mountain to climb!
3.5- 3-7 ..... enjoyable - fast easy reading - not a perfect book -yet because it leaves the reader wanting to discuss and debate issues - I'd recommend it!
Not a 'must' read.... but it's engaging.
Definitely 'extra' valuable to young parents. -
3.5 Immensely readable and entirely easy to relate. How many times when all my seven children were growing up, when I was ferrying them back and forth to school, outside activities, trying to keep up with housework, cooking, laundry, did I feel like getting in my car and running away? Way too many to count and I bet many other feel or have felt the same. In this book a 44 year old woman, suffers a heart attack, has bypass surgery and on release from the hospital finds her life with three year old twins and a husband who is always working, simply exhausting. She does the unthinkable and leaves.
This is her story, her time away, people she meets and her search for her biological mom. What she learns about herself and how she works her way forward. Was quite fascinated with the intrepid Marybeth, but was she? On the surface tough but oh so vulnerable, all the insecurities and fears of years, why I liked her despite the sorrow I felt for her little ones. If near the end it got a bit smaltzy, a little too, too, I could go with that. She had maybe earned it.
One of those books that could easily be rated a 3 or 4, depending not on the writing which was fine but on how the reader relates to the message. Sometimes we just have to learn to take care of ourselves first, easier said then done I know, before we can fully take care of others. So for this message and the fact that I quite enjoyed this one, I have gone with the four. Can't help feeling this will appeal to many women and their stressed out lives.
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3.5 Stars
Okay I’m pissed at myself for being a big fat pile and refusing to log on to the computer in order to yack out a review before this thing expired from the library because I KNOW Maribeth provided some pretty quotable quotes that made me laugh. Oh well . . . .
Let me start this half-assery by telling you that Maribeth is not for everyone. Different strokes for different folks and all that jazz so I won’t judge you if you aren’t able to enjoy her, but for me???? At this point I think she may be related to me . . . .
Well, except she’s more put together.
In case you need two hands and a map to find your own butt and haven’t figured it out yet, this is Maribeth’s story. Overworked, underappreciated, stressed out mom of (kind of awful) twins and a pretty incompetent husband, Maribeth not only brings home the bacon, but also fries it up in a pan and then cleans the entire house, runs kids to neverending extracurriculars, organizes horrible things like parents club (shudder) and strokes her hubby’s fragile ego to the point where she has a coronary. Literally. Thinking she might finally get some much needed R&R (at least for a few weeks), Maribeth is thrown for yet another loop when she gets home from the hospital and pretty much is expected to do everything except go to work after only a couple of days' rest. The solution?????
Maribeth pulls a wad of moolah she received as an inheritance out of the bank and gets the eff outta Dodge. That’ll teach ‘em, right? Well, eventually. First, everyone has to learn that valuable lesson that . . . .
Leave Me earns 3.5 Stars, but gets rounded down due to the fact that the first 1/3 of the story had a very Where’d You Go, Bernadette? type of OTT vibe/humor which kind of diminished a bit as the book progressed. There was also a that I thought cheapened things. I wasn’t put off by it, it just made it harder to remain committed to Team Maribeth. All in all, though, this was a very relatable story and one that I’m sure many of us harried moms have dreamed about a time or twelve. Lucky for me, my family just ran away for a few days so I was able to stay in the comfort of my own home in order to reboot. If only everyone I work for would do the same . . . .
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THE REVIEW
Why this book?
I usually love Gayle Forman books
What I thought
You are supposed to want to root for the lead character but I just can't root for Maribeth. I can't root for somebody who abandons their family and cheats on their husband. That's all I got to say. -
Friends:
I have been here. I have tried to do this.
Almost twelve years ago, I had my first baby. And two months later, in the throes of postpartum depression, I got my purse and my keys and started to get in my car to leave. My baby was upstairs in his bassinet. My husband was at work. And my plan was to go and not come back for a few years, because I couldn't handle it. Life. Motherhood. Personhood. Anything.
I was checked by a phone call from my mom. I got on medication. I got better, though I have had depression since I was a teenager and that will never completely go away. The leaving it all behind, starting over in a new place, sitting in a bare apartment and reading all day fantasy is one that I've had as long as I could remember.
So this book was very, very personal to me.
From the moment I started it, with only the vaguest sense of what it was about (I picked it up because I've loved all her other books), I could not stop. I had to know that Maribeth would be all right. I also had to know why she left, and how she left. (Not that I am currently planning anything. I was just curious.) And I was, of course, curious about how Forman would handle her first grown up book. The why and how, the ending, all perfectly plotted and handled with grace and humanity. And, as with her YA, Forman's dialogue rolls off the tongues of her very real characters. I loved them all, and I cared for them all. (Except for that one lady, who was useless. You'll know who she is.)
And yes, I read the ending on the recumbent bike at the gym and bawled. I think my fellow morning workout peeps are used to that by now, though. -
I mean, I appreciated the sentiment and all that, there was just nothing particularly compelling or interesting about this for me.
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Pausa ou Fuga
Se um coração de meia idade, que até à data sempre bateu bem, tem um ataque daqueles que mete cirurgia e tudo, algo de muito errado se está a passar.
E...por razões mais que óbvias, urge investigar!...
No caso de Maribeth, foi fácil:
Com dois gémeos de 4 anos, marido, profissão e uma casa para cuidar, Maribeth tinha:
Trabalho, Trabalho e Trabalho.
Tanto, que o coração achou por bem alertá-la, forçando-a a interromper a vida de trabalhos forçados a que se entregara!...
“Alguém tinha de levar as crianças às aulas de ballet, aos treinos de futebol, às sessões de terapia da fala, aos encontros para brincar, às festas de anos. De as levar às compras para escolher os disfarces para o Halloween, ao pediatra para tomarem a vacina da gripe, ao dentista para fazerem uma limpeza aos dentes. Alguém tinha de planear as refeições, comprar a comida, pagar as contas, verificar os extratos bancários. Alguém tinha de fazer tudo isso e ao mesmo tempo de trabalhar no seu trabalho propriamente dito..."
Uma vez recuperada, esperava-a a habitual rotina. Era suposto reassumir as suas pesadas funções, sem que o marido se prontificasse a ajudá-la um mínimo que fosse!...
Porém, regressar a esse quadro que se revelara fatídico, seria enveredar pelo Caminho do Suicídio.
Maribeth estava simplesmente FARTA! Não aguentava mais do mesmo! Era imperioso PARAR!
Se fosse borboleta seria fácil - bastava bater asas e voar!
Não sendo borboleta, fez algo equivalente - escrevinhou um bilhete e bazou!...
Maribeth fora vítima duma indigestão de trabalho e responsabilidades.
Como a cura de qualquer indigestão passa pelo jejum, largou a carga esmagadora que se lhe colara aos ombros, e partiu!...
"Deixa-me Ir" é uma leitura compulsiva!
Uma vez iniciada, vamos querer saber mais e mais sobre o percurso de Maribeth:
Terá partido para reflectir? Para encontrar uma estratégia que lhe permita coexistir com os seus?
Ou terá simplesmente enveredado por uma nova via?...
E o marido? Como teria ele reagido ao ver-se a braços com os dois gémeos e todo o trabalho da casa?
Entrara em pânico, ou crescera com a situação?...
"Deixa-me Ir" não se destina somente a mães trabalhadoras. É mais abrangente que isso:
Visa todos aqueles que excedem limites entregando-se demasiado a outros - são eles, as grandes vítimas do auto-esquecimento:
Há professores assim!
Há enfermeiras assim!
Há empresários assim!
Há médicos assim!
Há muita gente assim!...
Livros destes têm uma função dupla - entreter, e ajudar quem deles precisa! Eu cá preciso ;)
São 5 estrelas bem merecidas :) -
SPOILER FREE REVIEW
Picture this: a man wakes up one day with a toothache. He ignores it for a while, but soon the pain becomes so unbearable that he decides to pack his bags and go on a spiritual quest to find the Dalai Llama. On the journey, he meets a kind Sherpa who guides him up the perilous slopes of Tibet. Things go well for a while until disaster strikes: they are beset by a vicious snowstorm and end up stranded. After days of starvation, the Sherpa sacrifices his body as sustenance for the man so that he could make it to the end of his crossing. When he finally collapses outside the Dalai Llama's monastery, a group of monks find him and take him to meet His Holiness himself. Over the next few years, the man learns about the true nature of suffering. Once he has accepted that pain and happiness are two sides of the same coin, the tooth, now rotted to the core, falls off on its own, and the man knows that he has come full circle not only with his maxillary problems, but with life itself.
What's wrong with the story? Nothing. Except that if it ever gets turned into a movie, the audience would be practically screaming "Just go to a f@#king dentist, you moron!"
The concept of Gayle Forman's novel Leave Me is just like the story above. It takes the protagonist on a completely unexpected and highly unnecessary journey to solve a problem that could have been settled at home. But I'm getting ahead of myself. First, let me state upfront the positives.
This novel is about internal struggle, a topic that only the best writers should attempt. Unlike a zombie apocalypse or an alien invasion, inner conflict is so difficult to pace that you need significant talent to pull it off. Thankfully, Gayle Forman has that talent. She already has quite a few published novels under her belt, and it shows. Gayle uses a writing style called free indirect discourse (quite popular among modern authors), which combines third person perspective with a character's own thoughts:“So it’s okay if I go back to the office?”
No. It wasn’t okay. She hurt all over. She wasn’t ready to be left alone with her mother, with the kids. She was scared.
“Of course it is,” she said.
This style is highly effective for this particular tale because it lets us view the protagonist from a detached perspective, allowing us enough space so that we can reflect on our own lives. However, it can also zoom in as close as possible when it's necessary to create intimacy:Selfish! She was being selfish? All she did was take care of everyone else. For the first time in her life, she needed to be taken care of, and this was what she got? She felt tears of rage come to her eyes and then shame because damn him if she was going to cry.
Selfish?
Jason. Elizabeth. Her mother. They could all go to hell.
The plot itself is commonplace: Maribeth Klein is an editor for a posh magazine. She has two kids and a working husband. The only problem is that, aside from being the main breadwinner of the family, she's also effectively the housekeeper. Being both a mother and a provider means working long hours, at home and in the office, and working long hours means health problems. One day, everything comes to a head as Maribeth suffers a massive heart attack. She recovers well, but her family is so used to being taken care of that they essentially blame her for the piling dishes, the unpaid bills, and the...uh...lack of midnight action:She was tired. The twins were getting angry at her for not healing fast enough, for not doing bedtime often enough, for not walking them to school. She could feel Jason’s impatience, too, in every which way. He’d been spooning her tight in the mornings, so she could feel his hard-on pressed right into the small of her back. It reminded her of after her C-section, when he’d been so full of pent-up desire it had felt like a threat.
Maribeth snaps, packs up a suitcase, and leaves. The rest of the novel details her new life as a runaway mom in another city, meeting new friends, changing old habits, and maybe, maybe even finding out something about herself that she never knew before.
Now for the bad part. Seriously, ALL of this is unnecessary. The main conflict in the story is Maribeth's inability to say "No" and the perceived ingratitude of her family. She could have just went to a therapist for help. She could have just had a heart-to-heart conversation with her husband who, even though irresponsible, loves her genuinely. She could have just laid out some strict rules for her bratty kids to follow. While these choices require some courage, they're the most sensible paths to take.
But, no, a solitary, spiritual quest to Pittsburgh is obviously the natural course.
I don't deny that frustrated moms walk out in real life. In fact, it recently happened to a high school friend of mine; his attractive wife fell for Mister Moneybags and decided to exchange her broke husband and three kids for some high-flying good time. In other words, a genuine bitch. But the protagonist of Leave Me is none of these things, which makes her decisions all the more confusing.
No matter. Despite my misgivings with the plot, I would be lying if I said I hated the story. Gayle Forman paints the character in such a compassionate light that I didn't mind reading through the plodding drama just so I could find out if it all turned out well for Maribeth in the end. Speaking of the ending, it felt rushed and...well...you'll find out what I mean.
I would recommend this book mainly for married men because of the insight it gives about appreciating the small sacrifices in life. I don't have a wife, but at the conclusion of the novel I wished I had one just so I could kiss her and tell her how much I love her.
I must be going senile! -
Maribeth Klein, forty-four years old, works as an editor for a magazine in New York City. She and her husband Jason are parents of twins who are four years old. They have a busy stressful life juggling two careers, marriage, meals, etc. which mostly falls upon Maribeth.
Maribeth wakes up one morning not feeling well. Believing it to be indigestion from dinner from the night before, she continues with her daily routine. Luckily, she seeks medical care because she has had a heart attack that requires surgery. Her recuperation at home after being released from hospital is a disaster. Her needs are not being met as her family has not adjusted to her new limitations. Her family would like her to continue in her previous role as if she were never sick. Maribeth makes a drastic decision and decides to leave her family in hopes to heal physically and emotionally.
The book is well paced and a quick read. It has relatable feelings for any woman who is trying to manage it all while raising young children. What woman hasn’t thought of escaping responsibility for the day? This novel intertwines themes of marriage, friendship, and responsibilities as we grow older.
This is the author’s first novel into women’s fiction from young adult books.
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I wont say too much about this book but I just thought it was too slow The characters were okay, but it just plodded along this wasn't for me although I loved I Was Here in her YA category 3stars.
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This was my first Gayle Forman novel. I'd been seeing her name pop up frequently, so when this became available on the library overdrive, I picked it up, not knowing much about it.
Hmm, talk about relating to a character - in this case, it almost felt like too much, especially since Maribeth, the protagonist of this short novel, and I are of a similar vintage.
There were many things I liked about this novel, besides its relatability. I appreciated Forman daring to write about a mother - "the saintest (not a word) of saints" - who just packs her bags and leaves - husband, kids(!) and job. I hear the outcry - who could she? After all, she was middle class, living in New York, with twins, after several IVF rounds, good job, a decent husband whom she still loved but also hated for always taking "the easy way out" - she had it so much better than many. Well, that makes me appreciate Forman's guts much more than if she wrote about a battered woman. Oh, I forgot the mention it: the woman, mother, wife had a heart attack at 44 and a double bypass. So much fun!
The middle and the later part got better, more characters are added, new friends are made, a nice doctor appears on the scene. I quite liked that part, although, now and then, the cynic in me would pop its head but only for a few moments now and then.
The ending made Ms Cynic raise her metaphorical eyebrow, while Ms Mooshy-Feely found it satisfactory. -
Although the protagonist did many unlikable things, this story had me compelled to keep reading and it gave me a lot to think about. Maybe because I had so recently had an unexpected surgery, but I became so emotionally invested in Maribeth right away. When she was trying to recover from her heart attack, I wanted to scream at her family for not helping her. I was rooting for her to escape, although I had such mixed feelings about her doing so because this is a mother and wife leaving her family. How do you process that? How does SHE process that? I was fascinated by it, even though many times I was mad at her. This book showed me how messy our lives can be, and how we are not the only one going through things.
I've read all of Gayle's previous books, although I haven't always liked them. As a lukewarm fan, I really enjoyed this as her adult debut. -
Leave Me by Gayle Foreman
This is a story about a woman named Maribeth Klein who is a mother of twins who are four years old. She is married to her husband Jason who earns less money than Maribeth earns at her highstress job working with her best friend Elizabeth, who is an executive Editor at a magazine in New York City. Maribeth is forty four years old when she has two heart attacks.
After double bypass surgery, Maribeth returns home after only a week of recuperating in the hospital and it is if she is expected to step back into her busy life, taking the two kids to all of their activities. And they are involved in a lot of extracurricular places to go. Maribeth is adopted and her mother is there to help. Maribeth finds an extension to their tax return in the bottom of a heap of mail that has piled up on a table neglected. She faces loads of laundry and a sink full of dishes.
Maribeth is overwhelmed with responsibilities.
She packs a bag with about three days worth of clothes, draws out a huge sum of money and hops on a train at Penn Station and leaves her life behind. No cell phone. No computer. No cardiologist. No insurance card. Maribeth is living completely off the grid.
The reading goes by fast because the book is written in short little chapters. The character development is done well. I devoured this book in one reading. The sentences flow. This is a story for anybody who ever thought what their life might be like to start over some place different. I was thoroughly engaged in this story. Everything I have written is already on the dust jacket. There are no spoilers here.
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"Sometimes leaving someone is the most loving thing you can do."
Ms.
Gayle Forman is definitely a capable writer. I really adore how effortlessly she could use intertextuality and popular references in her writing and still make it lyrical. I've already read several of her books and over time, she has earned a spot in my trusted authors list.
Leave Me is a very memorable as much as it is a very relatable read for me especially since I'm a new mom. But the truth is I believe any mom who picks this up will be able to relate on a highly personal level. Maribeth is a sympathetic character, a mom who just badly needs a little break (because which mom doesn't?) A woman who just needs a little time to heal not only physically, but emotionally and mentally as well which she simply cannot do when every person who has relied on her all their lives can see her and expect her to fulfill her supposedly expected roles.
Leave Me is therefore a very important and necessary read. Just to live vicariously through Maribeth's experience has already relieved me of some of my pent-up stress and general exhaustion since giving birth because the reality is that only few or possibly none of us could just up and leave our family like that (haha). One of the good things that happened during this pandemic period is that I was given a chance to relax a little considering the work-from-home scheme and spend quality time with my family especially with my baby boy so I’m thankful I wouldn’t have to resort to fleeing. Lol.
It’s not like I approve nor agree with what Maribeth did especially the almost cheating part but this book honestly gave voice to the thoughts many mothers fantasize about, giving us an assurance that we are not alone. That just because we sometimes feel exhausted as a mother or as a wife doesn't mean we're bad people. I believe Maribeth was only claiming a long awaited vacation she clearly deserved. Maybe she could have done it in a less dramatic way but I still don’t blame her. She had a heart attack after all. Or perhaps, this is also a lesson to husbands to be a little bit more sensitive to their wives, a strong reminder that sometimes wives need to be taken care of too. -
When my boss left for BEA this year, he asked if there was anything he should bring back for me (as I'd been badgering him about it for a couple of weeks, TBH). I gave him a list of four or five books, but this was the only one he was able to snag. He brought it back just on time for me to go on vacation -- lovely timing, as this is tailor-made vacation reading.
(And now my obligatory plea: stop calling things "chick lit" or "women's fiction" because they are light or feature female protagonists. Women are not a niche audience #petpeeve)
There were several points along the way when I expected that I was going to hate this book. I was looking forward to reading it, but I was also a tad skeptical because I'd been just so-so on the two YA novels I'd read by Forman (great prose, side-eye plot). There were a couple of things about this one that frustrated me, but the more I thought about it the more I started to appreciate those things. Sort of.
This is about Maribeth Klein, a stretched-thin working mother who has a heart attack at the age of 44. When her recovery period turns out to be more of an inconvenience to her family than anything else, Maribeth packs a bag and takes off for Pittsburgh for some healing time. She leaves her twins behind with her husband, a somewhat flaky techie, and her mother, who might as well be another child to take care of. She leaves behind the magazine job where she works with the best friend from whom she's grown distant. And she leaves behind the cardiologist with the cold bedside manner who does little to reassure her. In Pittsburgh, she befriends her twentysomething neighbors and her new cardiologist, a man with his own vaguely mysterious pain, and she sets out on a journey to find the birth mother she never knew.
So here's the thing: there's a lot about Maribeth that irked me. I imagine she might be more relatable to other stretched-thin working mothers, but a lot of her behavior came across to me as incredibly selfish. Not just that she up and left her family, but also just the little things like sending passive aggressive emails with the laptop that she “borrowed” from her neighbors and kept all night long. She seems to be part of a growing trend of flawed-to-the-brink-of-unlikable protagonists, but I appreciated the fact that Forman seemed to realize that Maribeth could be a bit of a jerk. She becomes a fully-fleshed character over the course of the story, even if she’s not someone you’d necessarily want to hang out with.
The ending was a bit rushed, but I ultimately enjoyed this book. Not enough to leave me jumping up and down, but enough to get through it in less than two days. 3.5 stars, going up. -
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Some books hit you at the exact time they could make the most impact & that’s exactly how I feel about Leave Me. My life is incredibly overwhelming, especially this past year. I know there are many people who feel the same way. In my most frustrating times, I’ve contemplated running away, so reading about a 42-year-old mother who realizes she’s not getting what she needs to get healthy & leaves her family really struck a nerve with me.
I finished this book on a lazy Sunday afternoon. It’s a quick read that I easily devoured & would feel comfortable lending to any other reader who has dealt with immense stress. So, that means everyone, right? I would imagine fans of A Window Opens could easily relate to Leave Me.
I became very interested in this novel after reading this article by the author, Gayle Forman. I thought I was alone in my fantasy of running away, but I was pleased & saddened to hear there were LOTS of other moms, just like me. This is a REAL problem in America. I’ve spent the majority of my time as mother trying to devise the perfect formula that makes me feel ‘just right’ & that feeling continues to elude me. Earlier this year, I read Overwhelmed: Work, Love, and Play When No One Has the Time by Brigid Schulte. It’s the non-fiction version that tackles similar subject matter & poses questions that delve deeper into the societal infrastructure that supports & doesn’t support women. Unfortunately, there is not a simple solution to this complex & emotional issue.
I really connected to this story; therefore, I loved it. I will be talking about this book for a while & will likely read it again. -
If you are mother, could you ever imagine leaving your kids? No matter what the reason? What if you had a heart attack and when trying to recuperate, it was clear that you were a burden on your family, so you went back to the same old habits? And at some point, it became the straw that broke the camel’s back?
Maribeth Klein, (the main character in Leave Me by Gayle Forman) is one of those women. After her heart attack, she can’t take the stress of having to take over all of the old parenting and household duties, so she writes a note to her husband, Jason and then she just leaves. Takes money out of their joint account and gets on a train. Leaving them. Her family, to fend for themselves. And for the first month, she doesn’t even attempt to contact her family. Some days, her kids barely register a thought, while on others, she is consumed with guilt for abandoning them and at having left her husband to care of them all by himself.
I must admit that I could not understand Maribeth’s actions, but then I am not a mother. For a good portion the book I found myself furious with her, for her actions, her thoughts and her complete disregard for a family that she claims to love. Her husband Jason, at first seemed cold and uninterested in their lives and in her. Somewhere along the lines, Gayle Forman was expertly able to change my view on both Maribeth and Jason. While I never ended up loving Maribeth, I began to feel sympathetic towards her. With Jason, you saw him trying to work through his problems, pick up the slack in his family and be a real dad, and most of all, be there for his wife. Ms. Forman’s ability to portray the characters and have you feel one in emotion towards them for most of the book and then make them more compassionate and somewhat likeable was truly impressive.
While I enjoyed this book, I just didn’t love it and that was mainly due to my dislike of Maribeth. That said, I have to give kudos to Ms. Forman for fantastic character development. In my opinion, the ending of the novel was tied up a little too nicely. Considering Maribeth’s despicable actions, I felt that to be implausible, which only added to my disappointment of this book.
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Maribeth Klein is a wife and mother of twins who also has a demanding career and struggles with finding that perfect balance. When she begins having chest pains it's more of an inconvenience to her schedule that she doesn't give much thought to until given the advice to go get checked at the E.R.
Maribeth finds that she has suffered a heart attack and ends up needing bypass surgery but when she returns home she finds that the stress is still all around her. Taking her health into her own hands Maribeth packs a bag and finds herself leaving her family to get the time she needs to take care of herself for a change.
Leave Me is my first time trying out a Gayle Forman novel and I ended up really enjoying this story so I will definitely have to be on a look out for more. The book is full of emotion as the main character struggles with the stress of everyday life and the fear that her own life may come to an end if she doesn't find her balance and take care of herself.
I think Maribeth is a character that all working mothers could relate to I don't necessarily see everyone going to her extremes. But the fears and struggles she has could be real to everyone so it was interesting to watch her journey and felt for her throughout the book.
Overall, a fast paced novel full of emotion that I enjoyed all the way through.
I received an advance copy from the publisher via NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
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Initial Impressions 8/29/16, edited for full review 8/31/16: I’m a HUGE Gayle Forman fan so any book of hers, no matter the age range or genre, will be on my radar. When I heard that LEAVE ME was adult contemporary, I had to admit that I wasn’t super excited about it since I haven’t been reading as much “serious” contemporary lately and I don’t really read it on the adult level — I’m more of a YA gal. Either way, it was Gayle Forman and I knew no matter what, I was in good hands so I was excited to receive a copy of LEAVE ME at BEA this year! Upon finishing, I don’t really know how to feel about this book. If we’re being perfectly honest, if it wasn’t Gayle Forman’s book, I wouldn’t have read it. The entire premise of the book is that overworked, overtired Maribeth Klein whisks herself away for time to recover both mentally and physically after a heart-attack in her early 40s. She leaves her husband and two four-year-old twins with only a note, no way to contact her, and actively avoids ways that she can be traced so she can just take some time for herself. This really isn’t a topic I’m drawn to but Gayle Forman is the master so I was along for the ride!
This book (and entire concept) is so confusing to me as I try to sort out my feelings towards it. I know how I personally feel about Maribeth’s actions but there are just so many ways to look at it. The beginning of the book before Maribeth leaves was actually kind of hard for me to read with so many situations hitting a little too close to home. Having been in a similar situation with a medical emergency turning your life completely upside down, I just had a very hard time with the decisions that Maribeth made. I was not the person who was directly medically affected but I was a big part of that whole situation and yes, it’s always hard but my thoughts were constantly directed towards, “How can I help?” and “How can I understand?” On the flip side, no matter how close you are to a person, you’re not that person going through the medical issues and there are things and feelings you won’t understand. You have fear of your own but may not understand the level of anxiety that person is feeling, in which case, I did identify with Maribeth. Her heart attack was such a complete disruption of her life in so many ways and her only way that she was finally able to handle everything was to leave all responsibilities behind, including her family. Leaving I had a hard time with. Leaving and cheating are two situations that I really struggle to forgive or forget and even if things did end up working out in the end of this book (I won’t give anything away), I knew I wouldn’t be able to forgive Maribeth for up and leaving.
But then there’s the question of what strength is in this situation. Is strength staying and pushing through, working through all of the things with your family? Or is it leaving, taking some time off and gathering yourself up first? Honestly, I think either one could be the right answer but I had such a hard time with the fact that she literally abandoned her family. I know that she was not in the right mental state to really assess things, and that falls on her husband too since he didn’t really try to help around the house or with anything after Maribeth’s surgery, but it was hard for me to support Maribeth when her solution was to run. I guess we wouldn’t have much of a story if she spoke with her husband and took some sort of retreat instead of simply running… But that would have been a workable situation for me where I wouldn’t have hard feeling towards Maribeth. We’ve gone through some very hard things and our family is still in tact… but I’m also not a parent and don’t have that added responsibility and role in my family so I can’t speak on how that might affect a situation either. Life is messy and each situation is unique and complicated. I’m not in Maribeth’s family so maybe I would have handled things differently if I was in her shoes but from a reader’s perspective, it was really hard for me to fully understand.
My feelings for Maribeth aside, I thought this was a very good story and as always, Gayle Forman does an amazing job of bringing so many things to light. Maribeth’s situation was definitely more complicated than just the heart attack too and these things really added to why she ended up running in the first place. I won’t say hard things justify abandonment but it does help you understand where she’s coming from a little bit more. Gayle Forman also just has a way of making these characters come to life. I felt like I really got to know Maribeth, all of her new friends, and I could easily picture Maribeth’s life with her husband and children in so many ways.
I started and finished the book in one day. It was really easy to read and like so many of Gayle’s books, just so easy to get lost in. She does an amazing job of making you really feel a setting, getting you invested in a character’s story, and bringing raw, real emotions to the table. Her stories are about the more challenging sides of life and I’m actually glad she wrote this book because I wouldn’t have read this story by another author. It’s outside of my normal comfort zone — both being adult contemporary and also the “leaving factor” — and it was refreshing to think about things in a different way as I read. It’s also a bit scary, to be honest. I’ve only been married for two years and we’ve already been through a lot. I have amazing confidence in my marriage and I’m not really worried for us in the future but it does make me wonder what our life will be like in five or ten years which isn’t something I normally do. Life has taught me that there are too many thing you can’t plan for so I don’t map everything out but all I can do is hope that we grow together and build a solid foundation for our home and books like LEAVE ME really leave readers to reflect on their relationships/marriages/friendships. Even if you have an amazing relationship, there’s always a little bit more you can take into account and it’s interesting to have that reminder of what even the closest person to you might be going through without you even realizing. -
Gosto muito desta autora e sempre que sai um novo livro é leitura garantida. Gosto quando os autores arriscam e desta vez a autora deixou o YA para entrar nos romances adultos. Confesso que não me convenceu, nem historia, nem personagens. Espero que volte para os livros young adult onde é bastante boa.
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"Deixa-me ir" tem uma capa perfeita, que tem tudo a ver com uma certa parte do livro. Mas infelizmente, perfeita só mesmo a capa porque tive alguns problemas com o livro. Começamos com Maribeth, uma mãe muito trabalhadora, sempre preocupada e stressada com tudo, sempre sem tempo para respirar nem para aproveitar os pequenos prazeres da vida...até ao dia em que leva um susto do seu coração, que decide parar de bater por breves momentos.
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A protagonista é uma personagem simpática e com certeza que muitas mulheres mães se vão identificar com ela. Mesmo assim acho que a atitude de abandonar tudo, inclusive os filhos não foi a mais correcta. Já ouvi casos de pessoas que chegam a um ponto extremo de cansaço, estoiradas da maternidade e do stress da vida cotidiana e simplesmente fogem, sem nenhuma explicação...,mas fugir para mim não é a solução porque não vai resolver nada, aliás ainda vai fazer pior. Foi aqui que comecei a gostar menos do livro. O resto acaba por ser um pouco spoiler e portanto não me vou alongar muito mais.
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Meu primeiro livro da Gayle e fiquei muito feliz! Uma história que fluiu super bem e que fala muito sobre identidade, descoberta, mas principalmente sobre como a correria do nosso dia a dia MATA a gente pouco a pouco. Acho difícil que alguém leia esse livro e não queira fazer a mesma coisa que a Maribeth fez.
Quero ler mais coisa, mas acho que quero continuar na vibe adulta da Gayle, não quero YA. -
Three and a half stars
Maribeth Klein, mother of four year old twins and holding down a full time position at Frap, a celebrity lifestyle magazine, has a heart attack. She is hospitalised, operated on and nearly dies. You would expect when she comes home her husband and family would be completely supportive and caring. Instead, Maribeth feels too much is left to her to do and no-one is supporting her. She packs a bag, withdraws a sum of money and leaves her husband, Jason, mother and twins Liv and Oscar to cope as best they can. I struggled with this. To me it was almost inconceivable for a mother to do this. But then, I have never had a heart attack, had to deal with twins or a family that are so unsupportive, so I kept reading, interested to see how it would play out.
As the story moves on, the reader is given some insights into how Maribeth is feeling. While I found her actions hard to comprehend, I could at least empathise. That’s not to say I still didn’t have issues with the way she deals with her perceived lack of care and attention from loved ones. With the help of new friends Maribeth begins to pick up her life. Adopted as a baby, her health issues ultimately send her searching for answers about her biological parents. She discovers quite a bit about herself and her family she did not know.
I quite enjoyed this book, and could feel for Maribeth. I nearly always find email conversations annoying to read in a book and I wasn’t a hundred percent convinced about the ending. It seemed a bit rushed. But still it was an easy read and my first book by this author. I’d be inclined to read another. For whatever reason, I am nearly always a sucker for stories of children who are adopted. -
I know I'm supposed to look past Maribeth abandoning her family, but I can't. This has made me so angry.
Forman usually writes books that twist your emotions and wreck you for days. This is everything else but that.
Maribeth has an almost perfect life. A steady job for a popular magazine, a loving husband and two wonderful kids. But stress can ruin everyones perfect life. Feeling sluggish and sick, she believes its the food she ate. Until she is sent to the ER.
A life altering moment and shes in emergency surgery and it goes wrong. Waking up, she learns that she had bypass surgery and it devastates her. She can't play with her kids and do everyday things until shes all healed. Fearing the worst might come to her kids, she thinks about finding her biological parents.
Jason (Maribeths husband) leaves to go to work, even though she can't do much alone. This causes Maribeth to do the unthinkable and leave her family.
Who in their right mind would up and leave their family who they adore? I don't care what you deal with. You decided to bring them into the world and you made a commitment to do everything in your power to protect then.
This is why I hated this book. No normal person thinks this way and no one sure as hell doesnt cover up for your runaway lies. And what husband would be okay with all of this? Seriously!?
Not very realistic and no sentiment here. I wouldn't suggest this to anyone. She should stick to YA and leave the adult stuff to someone who knows how the real world works. It saddens me. -
I think just about every Mom has thought of running away from home if nothing more than to make a statement of how much we do on a day to day basis that makes the world go round. I liked the resolution that Maribeth got with all her family dimensions but some of it was far fetched. Not very Mom has $25k to withdraw & run away to Pittsburgh. An enjoyable read but needed a lil more grit for my taste.
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3.5 stars: “Leave Me” is a chick-lit read that has made the “must read list” of Amazon, Indi Next pick, Library Reads Selection, and People Magazine. Alas, the publicity is well founded. This is a realistic page-turner of a woman on the edge.
Maribeth Klein is a workingwoman, juggling it all. She is forty-four with a demanding job as an Editor at a high profile Celebrity magazine, has four year-old twins, and a fairly domestically challenged husband. Maribeth does it all, and more. When she ends up having a major heart attack and double bypass, she knows she’s got to step back and take care of herself. Shortly after coming home from the hospital, her domestic life is back to the previous chaos. Her life feels like it’s sucking the bone marrow out of her body.
Author Gayle Forman writes the fantasy that most every busy Mom has had: run away from home. Yes, Maribeth boards a train at Penn Station and runs. She leaves a note to her husband, but doesn’t tell him where she is. The reader gets to live vicariously through Maribeth. Forman thought this out. Maribeth’s new life on the lam is NOT a tropical vacation. She struggles to redefine herself and what she wants in her marriage and as a mother. The novel is from Maribeth’s prospective and life. The reader doesn’t know what’s going on at home and how her family is coping (nor does Maribeth). It’s an insightful read. This is the first novel I’ve read of Forman’s. I’ll keep her in mind when I want to read another smart chick lit novel that is engrossing and difficult to put down. -
Inhalt
Maribeth Klein versucht überall ihr Bestes zu geben. Ihr Job, ihre Freunde, ihr Mann und ihre Kinder nehmen sie so sehr in Anspruch, dass sie nicht einmal bemerkt, dass sie einen Herzinfarkt hat - und das Mitte vierzig! Sie merkt erst jetzt, wie gestresst underschöpft sie ist und dass sie eine Veränderung braucht.
Maribeth muss auch mal an sich selbst denken und beschließt kurzerhand, ihre Tasche zu packen und zu gehen ...
Protagonisten
Maribeth hat eigentlich immer hart gearbeitet, aber konnte dennoch nicht alles erreichen. Ihr Job fordert alles von ihr, und ihre ehemals beste Freundin Elizabeth hat zwar alles erreicht, arbeitet aber nicht so, wie Maribeth es gutheißen würde. Also ist die Arbeit nicht so zufriedenstellend, wie Maribeth sich das erhofft hätte und das macht ihr zu schaffen.
Sie hat auch sonst viele Pflichten und versucht alle möglichst perfekt zu erfüllen, aber das geht halt nicht immer. Ihre ganzen Aufgaben halten sie ständig auf Trab und auch ihre kleinen Zwillinge sind sehr anstrengend. Ihr Mann ist meistens arbeiten und kann bei den häuslichen Aufgaben kaum helfen. Alle Last der Familie liegt auf Maribeths Schultern und irgendwann wird ihr das eben zu viel.
Jason verspricht ihr nach dem Herzinfarkt eine "Blase", in der sie sich erholen soll, aber das kann er nicht wirklich erfüllen und Maribeth fühlt sich erschöpfter als je zuvor. Sie merkt nach dieser kurzen Pause im Krankenhaus einfach mehr als früher, dass sie das alles nicht mehr aushält.
Sie geht weg, weil sie nunmal die Zeit braucht, um sich zu erholen. Egal, was die anderen tun, sie müsste immer noch etliche Aufgaben erledigen und könnte sich nicht um ihre eigene Gesundheit kümmern. Ihren Mann mit den zwei Kindern allein zu lassen, ist nicht das Beste, aber ich kann ihre Entscheidung verstehen.
Jason ist zwar der Ehemann, mit dem Maribeth schon eine längere Geschichte hat, aber er kümmert sich nicht so sehr um die Familie, wie er vielleicht sollte. Aus Maribeths Sicht sieht man immer wieder, wie er ihr die Aufgaben überlässt und sich kaum selbst um etwas kümmert.
Die Zwillinge, Liv und Oscar, waren auch interessant und auch ein weiterer Faktor in Maribeths Leben. Oscar ist eher das tollpatschige Kind und Liv das reife. Beide sind auf ihre eigene Art anstrengend und dass sie so unterschiedlich sind, macht die Sache nicht leichter. Ich habe mich teilweise schon über die Kinder aufgeregt, weil sie es Maribeth so schwer machen, aber sie sind halt vier Jahre alt und da kann man sie ja nicht wirklich für ihre Handlungen beschuldigen.
Dann gab es noch weitere Charaktere, vor allem alle, die Marybeth in Pittsburgh kennenlernt und mit denen sie ihre Zeit verbringt, aber man kann unmöglich auf alle eingehen. Sie hat ihre Nachbarn, ihren Arzt und eine weitere sehr wichtige Frau. Sie sieht in ihren Leben die Schwierigkeiten, die andere haben und lernt auch daraus, darum sind schon alle Charaktere wichtig.
Handlung und Schreibstil
Ich bin ja selbst gerade 19 Jahre alt und habe beim Lesen manchmal fast Angst bekommen. Maribeth arbeitet sehr hart und hat trotzdem so viel Stress und schafft es trotz aller Anstrengungen nicht, sich den Aufgaben gewachsen zu fühlen, die eigentlich jeder Erwachsener zu bewältigen hat. Diese Passagen haben mir dadurch auch sehr gefallen, weil ich Maribeths Stress eben richtig nachvollziehen konnte.
Auch hat es mich schrecklich aufgeregt, dass alle sie so mies behandeln in ihrem Leben. Dass sie ihre Aufgaben erfüllt und manchmal auch noch mehr als das tut, ist für alle selbstverständlich und sie - also vor allem Jason - wissen das gar nicht zu schätzen.
Also meistens konnte ich alles gut nachvollziehen und habe mit Maribeth gelitten, aber manchmal konnte ich ihre Handlungen nicht wirklich verstehen und fand sie etwas zu unnahbar.
Fazit
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Gayle Forman is one of my favorite authors, so I was really excited to see her publish Leave Me. Then, I read the description of the story, and it completely spoke to me!
I jumped right in with high hopes of connecting with the main character and possibly experiencing some self-discovery of my own. I mean, what over-worked mother doesn't fantasize about a little get-a-away to focus on just yourself? Everything about Maribeth jumped right out at me… works full-time (check), two young and very, very busy children (check), completely over-stretched with commitments to family and friends (check), struggling with medical ailments (recent check)… yes it all hit home. So when Maribeth's medical recovery from a heart attack becomes an imposition on her family, she decides to pack up and leave for some time to heal both physically and emotionally.
The first half of the story really grabbed me because of the similarities I share with the character (minus the heart attack). However, the story suddenly transpired into a mom looking for her birth mother to understand her medical history and why she was put up for adoption. As Maribeth continues her quest, she also grapples with the pain of her breakup in her early twenties to the man she was now married to.
Overall, the story had a little bit of everything, and in the end I sort of lost my connection to the events and emotions of the main character. I was hoping for something different, and unfortunately this didn't quite connect with me like I hoped.
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The Overwhelming Snow Ball
I must confess that after reading the first part of this book, I was completely exhausted!
By the time I reached the last item in the daily tasks list of this working mother, I was already panting like my dog after chasing all seagulls at the beach!
Poor Mom!...
No wonder she had a heart attack!
Run, mother, run...
Save yourself from that slave life, before it leads you to the grave!
It seems to me that slavery didn't die after all!
It just sneaks around, carefully disguised, waiting for some easy preys like working moms to come near!...
Beware, Moms!
Don't let your routine tasks turn into some dangerously overwhelming snow ball!... -
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Leave Me left me feeling a bit raw, with my emotions and my heartbeat just underneath the surface of my skin.
In many ways, I was totally prepared to hate Maribeth, the main character in Leave Me. A 44-year-old mom of twins, a career woman, a wife, a friend, a daughter... One day, she was feeling out of sorts and it took until later the next day for her to figure out that she was having a heart attack. Which ended with her having open heart surgery and being out of it for a while, and recuperating in the hospital for a full week. Once back home, and really needing her husband to take care of her for a change, she once more finds herself to be the one who has to deal with everything! Taking care of the twins after school, making food, cleaning the kitchen, doing laundry... You name it - Maribeth was the one who ended up doing it, even with her mom having come to New York from Florida to help out.
It was impossible for me not to feel a kinship of sorts with Maribeth, as I'm 45, I have four kids, am finishing my Master's degree, and am working... And it sometimes does feel like the world (at least our family's world) rests almost completely on my shoulders. My husband is a great guy, but there are a lot of the small things he would never think to do! And so, while I don't see myself ever actually walking out on my kids and my husband - that's what Maribeth thought she had to do to survive the aftermath of her heart surgery - I could definitely understand her reasons for doing so! Leave Me really shows that while a lot of things have been done for gender equality, we still have a very long way to go in order for women to truly be able to 'do it all'!
Leave Me is as much about Maribeth and her need to recuperate, to get some rest, and also find herself once more as it is about how hard it can be to be a woman who wants to have and do it all. All the choices we make have consequences, and one of the things Maribeth had always held at bay was the fact that she was adopted. She knew this, but never had the inclination to find her birth mother. After her heart attack, however, she realized that it might be important for her to know about genetic illnesses in her family. Having all of this to deal with, and with a husband who seemed to spend more and more time away from home, it was no problem for me not to be mad at Maribeth. Especially because I never saw her leaving as permanent.
As the story unfolded, Maribeth learned a lot about herself, and as a reader, I was able to reassess some things right next to her. Figuring out what she truly wanted to do with the rest of her life, and how she wanted to go about it was an important part of her healing process, just as meeting new people and having to take care of only herself for a while. Written in third person point of view, past tense, and from Maribeth's perspective, Leave Me exceeded my expectations, and kept me invested in the story and the characters' outcome from start to finish!
"You sure you didn't get inseminated with the wrong egg," more than one person had quipped. The joke was stinging. Because Maribeth didn't know where Liv got that princess hair from, or those apple eyes, let alone their intense gaze. Looking at the little genetic puzzle that was her daughter had opened up if not quite sadness in Maribeth, then a sonar ping of sorrow.
"I believe you have a healthy heart," she said. "The doctors have done their part. But if you want to get better, really better, well, you're going to have to do that for yourself."
Her lists, her plans - they were her parachute, the thing to keep her from total free fall. She was in free fall now. And it wasn't killing her. In fact, she was beginning to wonder if she might've had it backwards. All that fixating on the fall... maybe she should've been paying more attention to the free.
