Life Inside by Mindy Lewis

Life Inside Reviews

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  Mindy Lewis

  I'm the author, so I can't review it, except to say that aside from being my story, it's also the story of an era in psychiatry and a cautionary tale about misdiagnosis, as well as an exploration of adolescence. Writing this book changed my life, and I will never write another like it. Thank you for reading and reviewing it.
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  Bird Trungma

  
  In reading Mindy’s book, I wanted to shout out loud, “Yes! Yes! That is exactly how it was!” so many times, since I was also locked away on a mental ward and mislabeled a “chronic undifferentiated schizophrenic.” Her skill in telling her story and my story and the story of so many other young people who went through the experience of being locked up and drugged and brainwashed with self-doubt, and then fought through the even much tougher experience of building some sort of a sane, decent life afterward is diamond-like. By “diamond-like,” I mean her writing is clean and sharp, not dull; she uses her pen like a sword which does not have any blunt edge. Mindy is at once an artist and a warrior. I am thankful for each word that she has written.
  
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  Rachel Karyo

  Once I started reading Life Inside, I could not put it down. The vivid, intimate writing transported me completely.
  
  Mindy Lewis' memoir paints a clear picture of everyday life on the fifth-floor ward of the NY State Psychiatric Institute at Columbia-Presbyterian Hospital. Life Inside also dramatizes a sensitive teenage girl's coming of age during the turbulent 1960s. The second half of the memoir, "Life After," discusses the particular challenges of adjusting to life outside, after twenty-eight months of hospitalization.
  
  Throughout Life Inside, Mindy Lewis faces painful memories openly and honestly, and I admire her courage. She is a strong, hopeful and determined individual, and her memoir offers much inspiration. It also raises important questions about the nature of human emotions and the dangers of unchecked institutional authority. Ultimately, Life Inside celebrates the healing powers of art, music and literature, of self-reflection and friendship.
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  Chris Blocker

  I had many mixed feelings about this book. I'm not much of a reader of "memoirs"; personally, I don't see the point to them. What is a memoir but an autobiography of a person no one knows? And it seems to me that if no one already knows your life story, then there is power in turning your life experiences into "fiction." The few memoirs I've read have had their highlights, but I've always been able to identify a fictional story of the same subject that resonated so much more with me.
  
  Here is a memoir by an author who seems quite talented. I think Mindy Lewis could write fiction. Her story tied together, her prose was equally relevant and poetic. Sure you could say there is power in the fact that this story was the truth (or near truth), but isn't most fiction true, as well? Perhaps sometimes even more truthful than the "truth." And how much more of an audience would this memoir has received if it had been marketed as fiction?
  
  Perhaps these comments only pronounce my bias: I love fiction.
  
  Regardless of my prejudices, I thought Life Inside started out great. Lewis' story of being committed as a teenager to a New York psychiatric ward in the 1960s was interesting. The pace is perfect as she starts right in the action of being admitted against her will and fills in backstory as it is relevant. The horrors and loves of her stay shine through. The reader can easily fall in love with those Lewis loves, hate those whom Lewis hates, and feel ambivalent to everyone else. We really can see this ward, especially the people, through Lewis' eyes.
  
  This works well for more than a hundred pages. Then the pacing changes. It speeds up. Suddenly, everything is on fast forward. Months pass in the span of a few pages. The reader no longer has time to fall in love, she just wants to get out of this place. Although not as compelling, this section works well, as it is likely the way Lewis saw things. Just get me out of here.
  
  Unfortunately for the purposes of enjoying this book, she does get out. Much too early. Just a few pages after the half way mark, Lewis is released and the following half crams together the story of the next thirty-five years of her life. While these latter years have their engaging moments, they are few and far between. There were times when I wanted to be done with this book--throw it aside and say, I got all I could from this. Instead, I plodded forward. And I was glad I did. The ending ties everything up exceptionally well and was highly moving. Here again was Lewis showing off her story telling abilities.
  
  Overall, I enjoyed Life Inside. Lewis has creative talent and has a really fabulous story to tell. The one thing that really drags down this story is that middle section. From approximately pages 150 to 280, I really couldn't care enough to continue--the only reason I did is my stubbornness to complete the books I read. Other readers may not have the same drive.
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  Denise MacDonald

  Wow! What a book! Obviously this is a memoir. Mindy spent years of her adolescent life on a locked psychiatric ward, admitted because she was rebellious and uncontrollable (as reported by her mother). The rest of her life is affected by the experiences she has while on that ward. She tells her memories along with providing excerpts from her medical files.
  
  She speaks of misdiagnosis, overly medicated patients, shock treatments, disassociated staff members and the overwhelming need to just be accepted for who she was. She also provides the flip side of her memories by visiting with the staff and doctors who worked on the floor she lived on and asking them about their memories from that time. She speaks about being surprised to learn that the staff had really cared for them and she ponders how different her life may have been if staff members had been allowed to express those feelings instead of being ordered to hide them.
  
  Another issue I picked up on while reading this book is the disturbing fact the psychiatrists tend to follow trends, that they don't think for themselves and dig deep into patients lives to simply label and diagnose, to rely on medication to fix something that may not even be broken. A person becomes a thing to be fixed rather than a person with hopes, dreams and feelings.
  
  Every now and them I read a book that changes my view on life, that gives me new tools to use when interacting with others ( whether it be people in general or the youth I work with). This was one of those books. I really hope Mindy's story is read by many people in the helping profession.
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  Ally

  I first picked up this book because I am interested in mental illness in general and asylums in particular. I got more than I was expecting. The book is reasonably well-written for someone who is admittedly more of a visual artist than a writer. The first part of the book is actually about her time in a mental institution as a teenager in the late sixties. After that, however, she continues with an account of her life after she left, and this takes up most of the book. At first I found this part tedious and unnecessary, but after a while it takes shape and really brings home the message of the book.
  This book may take a bit more patience than the ordinary "mental-illness memoir", but I believe it's worth it.
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  Pennylope

  I don't know why I started reading this but it was a struggle to get through. First, the kindle version was riddled with typos (enough so that I checked to see if it had been self-published because how could an editor worth her salt let that many typos go through?). Second, at times it felt burdened by unnecessary asides - but yet, it also felt like very important things were glossed over.
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  Heather

  Memoir from a girl who was made a ward of the state and committed to a psychiatric institution in high school, which should be super interesting and initially was but then gets kind of really long and meandering and has too many boring details and lacks enough self-awareness or relationships or forward motion in the story? IDK.
  
  Like, it seems like she rebelled cuz her family was shitty, which is a normal reaction. And that they overreacted because it was the 60s and there was a big generation clash, which is heartbreaking. But then you start to realize her decisions were worse than usual, so she certainly needed something - not sure if it was psychiatric help or just something. And then you wonder if maybe her perspective was just skewed because of her position and maybe she was mentally unwell.
  
  Anyhow, it just kind of floated around not going anywhere, which is unusual for this type of story. And also the editing in it was TERRIBLE - just grammar errors everywhere which is so strange.
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  holly

  I really enjoyed this book.....it's not for everyone.......Mindy Lewis was committed to a psychiatric institute in the late 60's 'simply' because she was being rebellious and got involved in drugs. It's interesting to read about her experience, along with many of the close friends she made. One wonders how differently they would have been treated in current times, and how their lives may have ended up differently - perhaps better, perhaps worse.
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  Christine M.

  I find Mindy Lewis and this brilliantly written memoir highly inspiring. It takes great courage for one to open up the door to revisit a crisis in their lives that caused so much damage. I highly admire you, Ms. Lewis, for sharing your story with the world. Not only have you inspired, but I’ve learned a great deal about the human spirit and what makes us tick from you. Excellent book.
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  Lisa Rau

  I followed Mindy Lewis through my own cloudy teenage path and emerged with a more artistic appreciation for the stumbles and regrets we make as dumb teenagers. I have since then read this book just shy of a dozen times.
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  Marissa

  Spoilers!!!!
  
  A lot of people complain about the second half of the book but its as important as the first part. It may not had been as interesting but you found put her true nature.
  
  I love this book. If you're interested in psychology this is a must read.
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  Stephanie

  Amazing that she got thru it and came out the other side.
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  Chamie

  Great insight into the world of mental illness.
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  Carrie

  memoir
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  Ava

  I wanted to give this more stars because I really did enjoy the first half, but toward the end I definitely lost interest/stopped really caring.
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  Emily Evangi

  Once I began this book, I didnt want to put it down. Not only does it give you a look inside history, but as well as an inside look to a hospital through the eyes of a patient
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  Trista Carter

  I loved this book. It is one that has an honored place on my bedside table. Her story hit home in such a personal way that I can't help but go back to it again and again.
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  Andrea Forro

  Very well written, brings you right into the thick of things.
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  Jan Byrne

  hard to believe that's what they did with "unruly" kids vack then... sad. tough to read
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  Lisa

  not at HCPL
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  Lori Anderson

  Excruciating to read. Had to set it aside for a while to stop my own tail spin.
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  Scott Avery

  why five stars? because I was there sharing some of these adolescent adventures with Mindy back in the day. a great memoir well worth reading
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  Joshua Allison

  Been there. Done that. Five times actually.
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  Vicki Gooding

  This is an interesting teenager. Too much pent up energy, hard to concentrate, so difficult to teach. After testing, there were some misdiagnoses as well. She doesn't want to be bad. People belittle her a lot, and it is easy to give up and believe their lies. She ends up on a psych ward, loaded with drugs that help depression, moodiness, etc. She now can begin to function and transition back into a real human being and live outside the ward..